As Christmas is getting near, I find myself getting busier and busier each day. I'm so busy in fact that I haven't even had time to host my annual cookie baking day with my family. Cookie baking around our house is no minor thing, its more like an extravaganza; Flour, sugar, sprinkles everywhere and we love it! I have tried so hard to fill my life with so many things to do this holiday season so I could "forget" for a little while that Ben won't be home :-( Well so much for that because he is never far from my thoughts every second, every moment of everyday. In the process of trying to forget my troubles, I've also forgotten the most important thing of all; my precious savior. Where would I be if he hadn't come to redeem me? I think back to the Luke 2 (the Christmas story) and I think of all the people who were surrounding the area the night Christ was born. These people were desperate for a redeemer and yet they missed it! They missed it? All except for a handful of dirty shepherds, some wise men, and Mary and Joseph. Can you imagine how they felt? Delivering their precious son the savior and redeemer of the world in a dirty stable and no one seemed to care? Guess what God didn't miss it, he was right there for the whole thing!!
In church on Sunday I broke down crying during prayer time and was just begging God to hurry and bring Ben home. I actually said God you just don't understand, I hurt for him so badly. I don't understand why you won't just let us have him now we would take care of him and love him so much better. I felt a peace come over me and Gods presence so strong beside me. It was as if God sat down beside me, put his arm around me and whispered in my ear. It was amazing !!!!! This is what he said: Liberty, I don't know about hurting so badly for my son? Did you forget that I send my son for you? That I KNEW there was no way anyone could love and take care of him the way that I could? That the precious gift I send down here would be rejected? forgotten? Did YOU forget what they did to him? I was there for all of that, I had to witness it! But I love you that much!!! So Liberty, give me Ben, I know what I'm doing and I love him that much!!!!
That's my story this Christmas, a stolen intimate moment with my savior in the middle of church Sunday morning. It was one of the most precious moments of my life as I simply handed my son and heart to my savior. For the next few days before Christmas I want to be in the stable with Jesus not in the Inn missing his birth!!!
Luke 1:14
And you will have joy and gladness, and many will rejoice at his birth
Merry Christmas and God bless.
