Amazed

We just accomplished our second post placement visit today. As this one came to a close I just had to smile, this puts us one step closer to finalization. All those months of waiting and agonizing as time seemed to crawl, I'm amazed at how fast time has gone since we've been back home with Ben by our sides. Ben. . . . . I can't say enough about him, he is perfect! He gives us such unconditional love that fills us up so much that at times I feel like my heart might explode. He is my heart!! It's funny because I think in the back of my mind I always wondered if I could love Ben as I love Aubrey and Anthony. I mean I loved him from the moment I saw him, even before that actually, but I mean those secret little fears that you harbor and push away. Well, the answer to that question is YES! I love that boy so much that its almost painful.
We found out that his Indian name (CHIRAG) means bearer of light! That describes him so well that we actually laughed when we read that. He wakes up cranky and wanting a bottle but as soon as he finishes he tosses it aside reaches up for me gives me a sweet little kiss and the most precious smile. What a way to start the day. I'm so thankful that God saw fit to bless our family with the most precious gift. It amazes me when I think of how far apart we were and yet here we are a family!
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17

Finally Pictures

FINALLY!!! I'm posting some pictures of our beautiful baby boy. Life has been crazy busy since we have Ben in our lives but it has been so much fun. He has brought such joy and light into our household. He is our amazing gift from God, and I never miss a day with out picking him up, squeezing him tight and whispering those exact words into his ears!

"Home sweet Home!!"

Home! There is no place like it, home is where you rest and I mean truly rest. I am so happy to be here, and show Ben his new home!!! We are currently working on getting his days and nights mixed to where they should be :-) He is such a blessing and has so far bonded beautifully. It's been such a easy transition, that I'm waiting for the big blow up. He does miss his friends and Ayah's, I played the video of his gotcha day and he became very quiet and then crawled over and layed his head on my shoulder. How I wish all his little friends could come live with us also!! I'm going to really try to meet some of the other Dillon moms and hope that our precious babies can be life long friends! It's weird but I've never even met most of the other Dillon moms face to face but I feel as if I have known them my whole life. Almost like we have an unbreakable bond through our babies? Ok its really early and I guess I'm babbling and being emotional! I just really think it's amazing the communication group we have through Dillon!!!!!!

ok on a completely different note, is anyone having trouble with blogger? I can't leave comments on anyones blog, It keeps telling me to sign in and I do over and over but still now luck?

P.S. I've attached a video of Bens gotcha day!!

"Leaving"

WE ARE LEAVING FOR HOME!!!! Woo Hoo!! We went to the embassy today and they had us wait for our packet instead of coming back tomorrow. We asked if we could go home now and they said of course! So thats just what we are doing, 2 days early !!! I miss my other kids so much it's ripping my heart out!! I just want to go home, so praise the Lord he is making it happen. Please all of you that read this pray for everything at the airport to go smooth and that Ben will sleep most of the plane ride away! And when he isn't sleeping he will be good. We have a rotten little booger on our hands, he is very very active! And he doesn't sit still until he just crashes to sleep! I will let everyone know when we get home.

"Dehli"

We are in Dehli, we arrived Sunday night. Ben seems to be adjusting well, he is full of smiles and giggles. I do think he is grieving for his little friends and Ayahs though, sometimes he will just look up at us and start crying. Its enough to break your heart!!
We got done with the Medicals yesterday and it was awful, they gave him 6 shots, so for everyone that has to do this prepare yourself! They wanted to split it up in two days, but we said just get it over with!!! Dr. Chawla is who we used and recommend her. Ben does have a rash that we have to get looked at when we get home, I'm so hoping it isn't scabies:-( We are off to the Embassy tomorrow so keep us in your prayers.

"Ben"

I am able to write this right now because my precious little bundle is sleeping! He is so precious, and has bonded well with Jason. He smiles at me but prefers Jason. I love seeing them bond :-) It was a wonderful experience for both of us!! I can't tell you what it felt like to walk into that room, I recognized most of the babies immediately. It was AWESOME!!! I am exhausted and want to head home. Not sure how it happened but our trip is a long one! We won't arrive home until April 10th, I was trying to make sure I had enough days in there for the embassy. I wish now I would have come home a few days earlier.

We are Here

We made it safely to the Kenilworth hotel in India. We had a nightmare trip that ended with the airline losing our bag. Our electricity adapter was in our bag, which meant no laptop or cell phone. I was a mess and freaking out let me tell you! My poor husband are you all praying for him, he needs it! I don't handle stress well. LOL! First let me start off with if you have a chance stay at this hotel! It is amazing! The staff here goes above and beyond to help you, they even tracked down an adapter when they found out about our luggage. They are why I'm able to write this blog today. Now that the bad news is out of the way, lets talk about the good news. . . . . . . We are picking up Ben tomorrow morning at 11! "I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it! " I will try to post again tomorrow, but I'm not making any promises. I've waited along time to hold my little guy and I just might not put him down again to type on this computer :-)

P.S. If you are in need of a travel agent for your trip to India Todd Gallinek was wonderful for us!